Dear two-thousand and thirteen,
I just want to say that you were a good year to me. I did a lot of first this year. I rode on a fairy and took a tour under the Golden Gate Bridge, I went to amusement parks, I went to Santa Cruz Beach Boardwalk, I started taking a lot more pictures, my persona style has defined itself a bit more and I am more confident in myself than I was a while ago. I won't say that your days didn't stress me out, but over all, you were a good year. Between working and the drama that comes with it, I am proud to say that I have grow. Not just intellectually but emotionally. From a regular cashier to a supervisor and that was just in a span of a work year.
Oh, dear 2013, you tried my patience but thankfully I am still whole and looking to cross as many of my items for this upcoming year, but some very important ones, I have already crossed off.
2013 was the year I came to terms with my mom's passing and I am very glad and happy to say that I am okay. I still miss my mother greatly, but I accepted that my mom is gone and not coming back. Acceptance was something that I didn't write on my list of to-dos this year, but I'm glad to have crossed off.
So, 2013, thank you. I expect 2014 to be a year that brings me the fruits of my labor this year. I also hope that I get to experience many more first next year. So, cheers, 2013. You were good to me, but all good things come to a close at one point or another. I will remember you fondly.
With much love,
Tuesday, December 31, 2013
Wednesday, December 18, 2013
Tulle skirts, Pencil skirts, Maxi skirts, Midi skirts, Basic skirts, Sequin skirts... I JUST LOVE SKIRTS! If you've followed me on Instagram, then you know I wear dresses and skirts all the time. Lately I've been wanting to buy a midi skirt and do like all the girls; tuck in my shirt and wear a cute belt and put on some high heels and look amazing. The thing is I don't have a midi skirt, I don't have many shirts that can just look good with those skirts and I feel self conscious with shirts that don't hid my belly and/or my bust. But this uis the start of a new year for me, so I have to start on my goals now and work on them hard. One of my goals is to dress for the job I want. I want to work in retail, so I have to be functional and fashionable. ( it doesn't hurt that it makes me feel amazing and my self worth shoots through the roof). And so, that's one of my many goals this upcoming year. I'll have to make another wishlist soon! Untill then, have a great day!
Monday, December 16, 2013
jean & military jacket; H&M $20 each / stripped dress; GAP (thrifted) $10.99 / VIP tote; F21 $3.99
Abstaining from shopping is such a hard task; it's almost impossible! ...I said almost. I just had to buy these though, they were on sale. I had been wanting a utility jacket real bad since last year, but I was never pleased with the ones I saw, then, I go to H&M to exchange a sweater that didn't quite fit me and BAM! I see these jackets. I snatched them up real quick and went to try them on. It's safe to say I fell in love. And these would go great with all of my ankle boots! The VIP F21 tote I had bought before but I was surfing the net one night and saw a DIY that I thought was cute and simple. I got a pencil, sketched different sized Xs and got a needle and some of the yarn my mom never used and went to work. Five minutes (or less; seriously, this is real quick) I had a tote with more of a WOW factor and I loved it. I think that the DIY was a simple and awesome thing to spice up something simple without doing too much; and I can always snip off those Xs and convert them into hearts or anything of my liking. Well, that's all for now, I hope every one is keeping warm, staying cozy and loving the last days of December as much as I am. Crazy work hours or not, December is to be savored one way or another. Have a good one!
Friday, December 13, 2013
Thursday, December 12, 2013
photo credit: tumblr (words and filter added by me)
Today officially marks five years my mom passed away. I was devastated when the doctors told us, she had a heart attack and she didn't open her eyes ever since then. Thinking about it still seems like something like that should have been in a movie. It was so sudden, it hit me so hard, I fell apart at the seams and wasn't able to function properly until about two years ago. But this year is different. I am able to grieve and be okay. I still get stuck in a haze sometimes. I retreat into myself, surround myself with music and loneliness. I go from day to day and everything turns into a blur then I'm snapped out of it and I see that days almost weeks have gone by without me really noticing time pass.
But, today isn't one of those days. Today I am in pain, today I am aware of time, today i am thankful for all those memories, all those words of encouragement and those looks of determination. I'm thankful for the stern hand my mother delt me with, for her playful nature, for the love she instilled in me. I hurt, but I am happy. I'm happy and thankful to have had a mother; a great mother who taught me that being friends is your own daughter is the best thing you can give them. As cliche as it may sound, my mom was my best friend. I talked to her about almost everything. And I think that's what I miss the most. I miss my best friend that was my mother. She was the world to me and will always be.
So thank you, mom. Where ever you may be; I know you weren't perfect, but you gave me love, you gave me encouragement and a vision. You were an amazing woman. I will love you until my last breath.
Wednesday, December 11, 2013
CK one gift set; $21 / H&M suede boots; $69.99 / J. CREW glitter clutch; $49.99 / H&M bag; $39.99
I am so in love with my boots! If you follow me on instagram then you know I've been wearing these babies all over the place. They make me feel oh, so cool and confident. And that's always a good thing! Anyways, I wan't feeling very inspired, but when I found this J.Crew glitter clutch, well, I was smitten. It made me thing of New Years and going out with friends to San Francisco... It's a very nice and festive clutch. I don't do glitter, but I just couldn't resist it this time. Every girl need a statement clutch, right? Well, this one is mine! >.<
Well, I hope to be getting in the "festive" mood everyone seems to be in, maybe a trip to San Francisco will give me that little boost? We'll see. Have a great week everyone!
Thursday, December 5, 2013
images from tumblr
And I'm on my way to believing.
Just a little out of inspiration, but to get back on track, I made this post. This here has my dreams of going to NYC next year and it feels kind of carefree and colorful. I guess you can deduce that I can't wait for the summer to get here. Goodbye 2013, hello 2014!
Tuesday, November 26, 2013
Tuesday, November 19, 2013
H&M sweaters; $24.99 (buy one get one free) / Clinique Body Wash, Hand&Body Lotion $30 / TOPSHOP dress; $40
So, I must say I haven't been that great in saving money this week. I went shopping when I said that I wasn't going to; but I must say, all of these items were on sale and I just couldn't pass them up! I will make up for my lack of saving in the next pay check, though. I have a couple more goodies I got online too. I can't wait until I get them! >.<
Sunday, November 17, 2013
My days have been so busy lately. You can feel the energy when you walk the crowded streets of San Fracncisco. Everyone is getting ready for the holidays and I'm just in awe of the magnificence of it all. The cold is creeping into the nights and the layers of sweaters I wear just seem to want to stay permanently. Almost all of the pictures here were taken in San Francisco, but the one of the cathedral is from Oakland; once I noticed that I was neglecting my photography, I picked up my camera and walked off. The changing colors of the leaves are just beautiful in the sunset and I find myself in love with this season all over again. I also went shopping a few days ago and I am very excited to show what I got! Have a great night and don't forget to stay warm! Ta-ta.
Friday, November 15, 2013
Go Fremont Tigers! This week was Spirit Week for my sister and had made a tutu and wore it to school. Doesn't she look adorable? I took these pictures on her way to school on Tuesday and I just couldn't resist posting them up here.
Thursday, November 14, 2013
cardigan & peplum shirt; FOREVER 21 / skirt; H&M / ankle boots; APRI
Slouchy sweaters are the best! The first time I laid eyes on this beauty I snatched it from the rack and didn't let it go. The knit is so soft and it's super warm! I paired it with my Apri ankle boots and a navy blue peplum shirt I bough at Forever21. I also bought some awesome knitted sweaters at H&M today, I'll post some pictures later! Goodnight everyone.
Sunday, November 10, 2013
pore refining solutions; $44 / even better eyes; $39.50
I don't wear make-up, but I sure wear Clinique! I just love Clinique; no, really, I do. I use the step 1, 2, 3. I always get complimented on how soft and smooth my skin looks and that's one thing every girl likes to hear. The one thing I love about Clinique is that it doesn't dry out my skin or makes it oily; which is one thing that was hard for me to find. Another thing I just love is that it's light on the skin. You can barely feel it on your skin and it actually works!
I have open pores, so I always have to use nose strips, but with the Pore Refining Serum, it's all getting better! One other thing I loved was the Dark Circle Corrector. It makes me look fresh faced and like I had a good night's rest! All in all, I am in love with these items. I haven't used the actual makeup and eyeshadow, but I think I would love it just the same. Hope everyone has a lovely evening!
Wednesday, November 6, 2013
I had the privilege of being the "photographer" for my nieces 15th birthday and I must say, I was moved to tears when I caught these moments. The affair was small and only family and close friends were invited. The moment when we were singing happy birthday to her, she teared up, and that's when it hit me, my oldest niece is now 15 and time is really passing by. It made me tear up to see my sister-in-law being embraced by my brother and then embrace her daughter, my niece, in the picture above. It made me so happy to capture these moments because these are the things that keep us grounded in the end. Love, companionship and family. It's al you can really ask for. And I am very glad to have it.
Tuesday, November 5, 2013
socks; TOPSHOP (Nordstrom)
When I bought my boots, I thought of a thousand different ways I could wear them. One of those ways was with frilly socks. So far, I didn't quite like the outcome, but I was also in a rush and didn't get to absorb the full image. I won't give a definite answer until I try it again and try it a few hundred or so ways. These socks are from TOPSHOP, which there's a small section of it in Nordstrom, but it's cute none the less.
Friday, November 1, 2013
It's November guys! One more month and it's the end of the year. Time has passed by so fast that it's hard to keep track of time most days. One thing that keeps popping up in my mind is being happy. Photography, cold walks in the morning or in a busy San Francisco evening make me feel content. One thing that really gets me is blogging. I'm getting out there a little at a time. Baby steps, baby steps. So far, I've bought ad space at Urban Tease's blog (if you haven't been to her blog, then I suggest you go check it out, I always love her content). Lately I've been thinking about the outcome of my life and I want to be successful in my own terms.
Be successful but don't sacrifice your happiness for it. In the end, it won't mean a thing.
Wednesday, October 30, 2013
wearing: jacket; ELLE / shirt; AMERICAN APPAREL / skirt; F21 / shoes; CONVERSE
Today, I wore my Vampire Weekend t-shirt and I felt cool. When I got the shirt in the mail, I was so excited I actually squealed. I don't usually do that (no matter what my sister says). I had more pictures displaying the shirt and all, but the sun was quite bright and the glare didn't look so great in the pictures. I'm happy with these, though. Well, that's all for now folks! Have a good evening, day, morning... you get my drift.
Tuesday, October 29, 2013
I've always loved second hand stores; my mom used to take my siblings and I and I would have a blast trying things on and digging through the toy pile. I went to try my hand last week and came up with some awesome boots, a wool skirt and a navy blue cotton top. The look is so 90's and I just loved the price of these 3 items since it was a few cents under $10. I think I have to go back and get myself a tea set and cross another item off my wish list.
Friday, October 25, 2013
I am so in love with my new Vampire Weekend band tee! I saw this shirt on Polyvore and loved the flower print on the shirt. I didn't pay much attention to what it was exactly, but I searched the shirt in different links and then I went to Poshmark.com and found it there! I got it for a few bucks less than the original price and I just got it today. I am so stoked; I can't wait to style it!
Thursday, October 24, 2013
One thing for sure is that I love my boots! I bought these at the local secondhand shop and they were only about $4! The style is very 90's and the heel is small. I was prepared to go to Nordstrom and buy a pair of Dolce Vita boots, but I think I'm okay for a while.
Layering is key for this weather, so with my boots I wore my Old Navy Blue Stripped Skirt and my favorite and amazingly soft and sturdy Hollister Hoodie. To top it all off I wore my Old Navy Jean Vest and my Violet Boutique beanie. The outcome was very warm and San Francisco weather.
beanie; VIOLET BOUTIQUE /
jean vest & skirt; OLD NAVY /
hoodie; HOLLISTER /
Sunday, October 20, 2013
Growing up is simply unavoidable. I remember when I was a silly (sillier than I am now) little girl and I wanted to grow up.. I thought that if I were a grown up, I'd have what I needed. I'd have no need. I'd have those clothes I so wanted, those cute heels, those handsome men after me... I was very naive and quite vain not to mention I was very blind and deaf to the words my mother always told me.
I won't really get into that but I guess these hard work-filled days have really made me really realize that I don't want to be here, in customer service for all of eternity. I want to work in a big retail store, a small family owned shop, a bookstore... I want to have different experiences, live in a small apartment by myself, sell some of my photography online, reach 1k followers on instagram, get more involved with my readers.
I guess I want a lot, but isn't that the point? To dream and make that dream a reality? So I won't discourage anyone, just be mindful of what you do; use your time wisely because you never know, you might just get your break. Dream big and go out and try and achieve it. One day at a time.
Thursday, October 17, 2013
This outfit post is a little late (I wore this on Sunday), but I just love the look of it that I decided to post it up anyways.
The thing I love about button downs, jean button downs at that, is that you can either tuck them in or not and they still give you an cool and collected effect.
The skirt I bought at H&M while back but couldn't find an instance to wear it in. So for Pastor's day this is what I wore. The sequins in the skirt make up the dressy part and the thread bare jean button down gives it the cool and collected vibe. My ankle boots makes it seem like I tried, but not that hard as wearing high heels would imply.
You gatta look cute but still be comfortable, right? Have a good one everyone!
top; HERITAGE21 /
sequin skirt; H&M /
ankle boots; APRI / wristlet; COACH
Tuesday, October 15, 2013
Sunday was Pastor's Day in my church and like always, I had to take a few pictures of my own to share on my Facebook. I took a few pictures, but the lighting was so bad almost all of the pictures were yellow in tint. I tried my best to change the white balance but it wasn't possible on many of the pictures. But I'm glad that I was able to attend Pastor's Day because it was real nice and the cookies and pastries and such were amazing! Well, have a good day everyone!