Dear two-thousand and thirteen,
I just want to say that you were a good year to me. I did a lot of first this year. I rode on a fairy and took a tour under the Golden Gate Bridge, I went to amusement parks, I went to Santa Cruz Beach Boardwalk, I started taking a lot more pictures, my persona style has defined itself a bit more and I am more confident in myself than I was a while ago. I won't say that your days didn't stress me out, but over all, you were a good year. Between working and the drama that comes with it, I am proud to say that I have grow. Not just intellectually but emotionally. From a regular cashier to a supervisor and that was just in a span of a work year.
Oh, dear 2013, you tried my patience but thankfully I am still whole and looking to cross as many of my items for this upcoming year, but some very important ones, I have already crossed off.
2013 was the year I came to terms with my mom's passing and I am very glad and happy to say that I am okay. I still miss my mother greatly, but I accepted that my mom is gone and not coming back. Acceptance was something that I didn't write on my list of to-dos this year, but I'm glad to have crossed off.
So, 2013, thank you. I expect 2014 to be a year that brings me the fruits of my labor this year. I also hope that I get to experience many more first next year. So, cheers, 2013. You were good to me, but all good things come to a close at one point or another. I will remember you fondly.
With much love,
Tuesday, December 31, 2013
Wednesday, December 18, 2013
Tulle skirts, Pencil skirts, Maxi skirts, Midi skirts, Basic skirts, Sequin skirts... I JUST LOVE SKIRTS! If you've followed me on Instagram, then you know I wear dresses and skirts all the time. Lately I've been wanting to buy a midi skirt and do like all the girls; tuck in my shirt and wear a cute belt and put on some high heels and look amazing. The thing is I don't have a midi skirt, I don't have many shirts that can just look good with those skirts and I feel self conscious with shirts that don't hid my belly and/or my bust. But this uis the start of a new year for me, so I have to start on my goals now and work on them hard. One of my goals is to dress for the job I want. I want to work in retail, so I have to be functional and fashionable. ( it doesn't hurt that it makes me feel amazing and my self worth shoots through the roof). And so, that's one of my many goals this upcoming year. I'll have to make another wishlist soon! Untill then, have a great day!
Monday, December 16, 2013
jean & military jacket; H&M $20 each / stripped dress; GAP (thrifted) $10.99 / VIP tote; F21 $3.99
Abstaining from shopping is such a hard task; it's almost impossible! ...I said almost. I just had to buy these though, they were on sale. I had been wanting a utility jacket real bad since last year, but I was never pleased with the ones I saw, then, I go to H&M to exchange a sweater that didn't quite fit me and BAM! I see these jackets. I snatched them up real quick and went to try them on. It's safe to say I fell in love. And these would go great with all of my ankle boots! The VIP F21 tote I had bought before but I was surfing the net one night and saw a DIY that I thought was cute and simple. I got a pencil, sketched different sized Xs and got a needle and some of the yarn my mom never used and went to work. Five minutes (or less; seriously, this is real quick) I had a tote with more of a WOW factor and I loved it. I think that the DIY was a simple and awesome thing to spice up something simple without doing too much; and I can always snip off those Xs and convert them into hearts or anything of my liking. Well, that's all for now, I hope every one is keeping warm, staying cozy and loving the last days of December as much as I am. Crazy work hours or not, December is to be savored one way or another. Have a good one!
Friday, December 13, 2013
Thursday, December 12, 2013
photo credit: tumblr (words and filter added by me)
Today officially marks five years my mom passed away. I was devastated when the doctors told us, she had a heart attack and she didn't open her eyes ever since then. Thinking about it still seems like something like that should have been in a movie. It was so sudden, it hit me so hard, I fell apart at the seams and wasn't able to function properly until about two years ago. But this year is different. I am able to grieve and be okay. I still get stuck in a haze sometimes. I retreat into myself, surround myself with music and loneliness. I go from day to day and everything turns into a blur then I'm snapped out of it and I see that days almost weeks have gone by without me really noticing time pass.
But, today isn't one of those days. Today I am in pain, today I am aware of time, today i am thankful for all those memories, all those words of encouragement and those looks of determination. I'm thankful for the stern hand my mother delt me with, for her playful nature, for the love she instilled in me. I hurt, but I am happy. I'm happy and thankful to have had a mother; a great mother who taught me that being friends is your own daughter is the best thing you can give them. As cliche as it may sound, my mom was my best friend. I talked to her about almost everything. And I think that's what I miss the most. I miss my best friend that was my mother. She was the world to me and will always be.
So thank you, mom. Where ever you may be; I know you weren't perfect, but you gave me love, you gave me encouragement and a vision. You were an amazing woman. I will love you until my last breath.
Wednesday, December 11, 2013
CK one gift set; $21 / H&M suede boots; $69.99 / J. CREW glitter clutch; $49.99 / H&M bag; $39.99
I am so in love with my boots! If you follow me on instagram then you know I've been wearing these babies all over the place. They make me feel oh, so cool and confident. And that's always a good thing! Anyways, I wan't feeling very inspired, but when I found this J.Crew glitter clutch, well, I was smitten. It made me thing of New Years and going out with friends to San Francisco... It's a very nice and festive clutch. I don't do glitter, but I just couldn't resist it this time. Every girl need a statement clutch, right? Well, this one is mine! >.<
Well, I hope to be getting in the "festive" mood everyone seems to be in, maybe a trip to San Francisco will give me that little boost? We'll see. Have a great week everyone!
Thursday, December 5, 2013
images from tumblr
And I'm on my way to believing.
Just a little out of inspiration, but to get back on track, I made this post. This here has my dreams of going to NYC next year and it feels kind of carefree and colorful. I guess you can deduce that I can't wait for the summer to get here. Goodbye 2013, hello 2014!